Second Anniversary. Happy birthday to me

Two years I started this site. You can check it, first entry was on November 6th 2016.



Two days before my birthday I remember watching the Slayerfest Youtube video and since then, my life has not been the same.

My heart felt like it find a little light that flooded it all. It felt like it was back in one piece.



And as strange as it is, right after that it broke into a million pieces. It will recover from the pain and then again, broke again.



For months it's been like that. I'm not sure it healed already.



This site is my therapy. It is the place where I keep coming back, the place where Andy still lives among us. He is still here. Somehow.



Probably the blame's on me for denying the reality. But how can you accept it?.



I can only think of the pain all friends and family must has suffered and suffer now today. I can only apologize for being so blind and selfish.



One of the risks of this site is the constant feeling of being alone in this. I mean, I know there are many people that still remember him, still think of him. They just don't go on the Internet and spread out, right?.



I am sorry if anyone is hurt with my words. I feel I need to let this all out. I need to do this for my own good the best way I know.



Two years ago all started. It all started ending. Now I can only expect brilliant things to come.





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